I'm in such a terrible dilemma. The time is currently about 2.30 in the morning and I should probably go to bed now. If my mom somehow catch me, still awake at this time, she'll surely punch me in the face till I look like a Chinese! (Not being racist. Just a joke from my friend) There's actually one problem that's stuck in my mind right now.
It's more accurately to be said as a DILEMMA! Actually, I've been longing to go to boarding school since I was 12, which is about 3 years ago. I can't help it that I'm so jealous to see those "boarding school-ers" having an awesome time with their friends tak kira lah in studies or just "aktiviti-aktiviti santai." The thing is, I want to be part of them too.
But...on the other hand, I don't want to leave my friends here, in my current school. It's been three years since I first get in this school and I've made friends with some awesome and very interesting people, here. So, takkan la nak cabut macam tu je kan? I'm very sure that I'll miss my buddies a lot and I probably be homesick kalau pergi SBP (Sekolah Berasrama Penuh) And they might miss me too (harap-harap la). And then, bukannya senang nak say "bye-bye" to Public Speaking competition that I had participated in, for 2 years. dah la next year ada debate lagi. Haish, susah la macam ni.
But then something came to my mind, "Do my friends really going to miss me if I'm gone?" -- "Ada perubahan ke kalau aku keluar sekolah tu? Rasanya diorang lagi seronok kot?" And all sort off negative thoughts just like popped in my mind. So, that's why I'm in an awful dilemma right now. I don't know what to do. Kalau tak dapat SBP, senang la sikit nak buat decision sebab memang tak boleh pergi mana-mana pun, although.. my heart is going to shatter into pieces and I'll probably run out of tears due to crying, weeping, sobbing, etc.
WHAT SHOULD I DO? PLEASE HELP!
Love,
Fiffy
To tell u the truth . I'm going to miss u dear :')
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