Tear Me Down Like A Paper?

Hey Charmz. It's good to write to you again. I don't know why but I just feel kind of bummed. I really feel like everyone is trying to put me down. I feel ignored and neglected. Sometimes, even my own BFF would talk to another person without telling me. Even they are right in front of my eye balls.!! But I don't really blame her...   (I guess) And what makes me sad is that I'm lacking of friends. They must have look/judge me like I'm some kind or freaky nerd weirdo! Did everything I do is wrong and so bad?

I also often get bugged by my physical appearance. I mean... I'm really short and "plumpy". I hate that! If only the lady, Jillian from the Biggest Loser could come here and "fix" me a little. You know what I mean. Some of my classmates are so mean. They call me names that a person hated to be called. Even my best friend looks me like that. But, I just pretend that I didn't care by laughing my heart out most of the time. I wouldn't go to anyone and say "Hey you. You know that your words hurt me?" cuz I don't want to. But what I really wanted to say is " Hey! stop belittling me and putting me down!" But I didn't dare myself to.

I wish the people who makes me feel small out there could have read this and they could realize what they made.But I'm not saying all of my friends/people hurt me. Just... most of them.

So I guess I'll have to go now Charmz. It's such a relief writing to you this evening.
Have a great day!

Sincerely,
Me...
(feeling down and ignored)

Home Sweet Home ♥

People often says home sweet home and believe it or not, even though you're not living in an enormous mansion, you will feel as if your home is the perfect home in the entire universe. I am not kidding. I'm back from my 4 days 3 nights vacation and although the place where I crashed into is pretty nice, but I still love my own home.

It's pretty exhausting walking here and there and I slept for like just 5 hours a day. My family and I have been walking all day long and both my legs are having an awful cramp and ache. The sultry days were very suckish. But putting that aside, I had a wonderful trip I guess. I'm really bewildered watching many kinds of people walking here and there with some sickly thick clothes just to appear beautiful and outstanding. 

On top of that, it also gives me a headache observing "colorful" people who had come from all around the globe to this overcrowded and busy metropolis. Maybe they are going for the year-end-sale or something I'm not really sure. But anyway, I bought some items that I planned to buy but still didn't get some stuffs that I want. I'm not going to tell you what are they!

Believe it or not, I just ate half of a roasted chicken for two days straight! No kidding! I'm really putting on weight now and trying hard to lose'em fast! Or else, I'll look like a big fat chicken and my friends will make fun of me for sure! (OK maybe not until a "big fat chicken") hahahaha! But, I really love those chickens and I'm determined to roast one exactly like that. You think I can do it? Yeah, I have no clue about that either.

Well, see you next time, Charmz!!

XOXO

Do I belong?

Dear Charmz Diary,

It's me, your best friend. Can I ask you something? Do you think I "belong" in my friends? Well... I just watched a movie called Barbie Mariposa. Now I'm not trying to prove or show you that I'm rather childish for a 14 year old girl. But, in that movie, Mariposa exclaimed that she felt like she don't belong in the place where she lives which is called Flutterfield. And.. when I look back, I don't feel like I belong in my "place" too. I mean, I have the least friends among my friends. Yeah, No kidding! I often feel ignore and being left out just because I don't like things that they like and they don't fancy stuff that I find interesting. Is that my fault? One of my friends told me that I don't have to care what they like and the only thing I've to do is just be myself. I know that's the best thing to do but it's kinda hard though. Sitting in a territory where no one seems to get what you're trying to say...

I really like those kinda songs like''skyscraper'', "who's laughing now" and "Lala land" by some various inspiring singers. Those words are so much alike to my situation. Those songs are about a person who doesn't feel belong in their own spaces. In the Barbie Mariposa movie, Mariposa succeeded in saving her land Flutterfield and right after that, she always feel belong...Should I save "my land" to feel belong too? I don't think so...

But now, I'm thinking, "screw these people" I know what I like and I'm not going to pretend to like something that I don't just so that I could feel belong and fit it. I want to be ME! And no one can ever tell me to be someone who I'm not. I still have friends who enjoys the same stuffs as me. Wherever I go, I know that my friends will always be there beside me...

I guess I've said what I really wanna say, dear Charmz...
So, goodbye for now!
XXX

Last Day of Torture! PEACE OUT

Why last day a torture? Wondering what's the definition of it?

Haha! In this case, what I actually mean is "The Last Day of School". The school days in 2010 kinda sucked and 2011 has improved a bit. Not much anyway. So now, it's officially end of school for year 2011. So, very, glad that it has finally come to an end.

By the way, me and couple of my friends planned to have ANOTHER "ice fight" today. One of them even willing to sponsor a bag of ice. (yeah my friends are crazy) But then, we realized that we don't have much time and some of the teachers ACTUALLY entered the class. What a bummer! But, we did take couple of photos before the bell rings. I figured out that I might miss some of my classmates later on because next year, not all of us will be in the same class. Sad right?

Well, whatever. Now that holiday is official on, it's time for me to sleep late and watch all the movies and videos I want! YAY! But on the other hand, I also have tonnes to complete by the end of this year. I'm going to face one of the biggest exams next year, you know? (yeah it's unbelievable!!) But I'm still gonna enjoy my looong holiday, anyway.

My buddies and I are planning to go somewhere but we haven't decide yet. Just waiting for all the answers.
Ok then. I guess this is goodbye Charmz!
XXX

Ice fight!!!

"Ready? FIRE!!!!"

Hey yaw!! It's me again. Who else could it be? Hahaha! Wondering why my post title sounds kind of weird? Well of course it is. It's one of the best part in the year 2011 for my classmates and I!!

Today, my friends and I planned to have a YEAR-END PARTY 2011 for our class.  We had to pay a few bucks which to me is no big deal. However, there are some of them who "refuse" to pay it. I don't understand these people..By the way, there's barely enough food at the party cuz of them. Our class teacher joined us too and she thanked us for planning all of this and for the such wonderful meal. 

But out of the blue, something hit me on my waist. I found out it was a cold, hard ice. I didn't shout out loud although I'm supposed to do so. I just laughed and turned around. My class monitor ordered us to stop doing that and stay calm. But then, I announced "Ah, what the heck! School's almost over! So, ICE FIGHT!!!!" I think I was kind of the "mastermind" in this. We all started to grab a hand full of ice cubes and tossing them to one another. They secretly gathered at the back of the class without telling me and then, they threw a bunch of hard ice on me!! I was alone at the front, getting hit, HARD! (mean) xD

It was an utter chaos. By the way, one teacher reported the "mess" to our class teacher and then, we all got scold by her. I was sitting in my seat, SHRINKING slowly in shame. But.... Screw them all! It was totally fun. I had a video of it in my camera. wow! It was extremely fun, even after got scold by the teacher. HAHAHAHA!!!

So I guess that's all that happened at the party bash! i'm so gonna miss my classmates. Well, maybe not all of them..
One last word..

2 HARMONI 2011 ROCKS!!! (that was written on the cake)

Bye then Miss Charmz
XXXX

Nov 1st, a beautiful day

Hey Hey Hey!!!

Happy birthday to you,
You live in a zoo,
You look like a monkey,
And you smell like one too!

 Haha. I sounded like one of those penguins of Madagascar already. My BFF's used to sing that when it's one of our birthdays. But  know, they aren't here anymore. SAD. Anyway, know why I'm excited, Charmz? Cuz it's Nov 1st 2011 today and that means it's officially my 14th BIRTHDAY! You didn't give me any presents, Charmz? Hahaha. Just kidding. You're a diary, you can't give presents, I know. Still not insane here!

By the way, I would just like to tell you that I had quite lot of fun today at school. I brought a chocolate cake to school and my friends and I shared it. My pals gave me gifts too. (Thanks guys!) We just chit-chat a lot and laughing non-stop. Hilarious! One of my friends treat me for such a wonderful meal too, after school. In class, we played several games like UNO cards, Truth or Dare and others. There's this one thing that me and a friend of mine like to do. It's grabbing any recycled newspapers that have pictures in it, and make a funny dialogue about it. Then we'll switch. LOVE DOING THAT!

MY PALS:

• Zulaikha (BFF)
• Husna (BFF)
• Umi
• Swarnaa
• Laksumitha
• Prishanth

Unfortunately, it rained cats and dogs when I arrived home. Such a BUMMER! But, I got to watch the new episodes of "Victorious" Well at least that cheered me up. Then, my sisters and mom gave me some prez. Thanks!

And did I mentioned that the radio DJ's were talking about the special date 1/11/11 early in the morning? Well they did. Felt happy! (Justin Bieber-Mistletoe is also out today!)

I guess that's all that happened on this beautiful day for me. Waiting for the present from my dad.
Bye Charmz!
XXX

Torture's Over, Let the Freedom Begin!

"Burning the midnight oil is just every students' hobby..."

I kept saying and repeating that word for about 2 weeks past. There's an important final exam before and I had to study and revise all the stuff that teacher told me, very hard. There's a reward for every success..
But now guess what? The finals are over! As I said in the main title: Torture's over and let the freedom begin. I believe that every student of my age in my school, felt very relieved and delighted with this, so am I. There's no more books to study and no more midnight oil to burn!

But, despite of all the enjoyment, I found that doing absolutely nothing is just like living in a whole world of boredom. I have to think of something to fill up my leisure time. So, I decided to learn new recipes and do some studies on stuffs I like such as.. CHEMISTRY! I heard that this subject is quite hard so, I believe that there's nothing wrong of learning it early, isn't it? OK, let's close the story about Chemistry and move on to another.


On the other hand, I would also like to create and finish my short story that my friends and I created. It all started on that boring day of no teachers. An idea just popped out of my mind so I gathered up few of my friends and tell them about my idea. They said that it was brilliant indeed. I'm so happy and without wasting more time, I grabbed my notebook with a pen and started on our story.


So, I guess that's all I can tell about how glad I am after finals. Till then!
Bye Charmz!
XX

Rome isn't built in a day..

Every time I watched a movie that has a genius and brainiac character in it, I feel like there’s something gets to my nerve. I feel all enthusiastic about it. Continuing to watch the movie would be a compulsory and my little mind automatically aimed on a target. The target is to be just like the character. Looking at what he/she is capable of really emerges the jealousy in me. I was thinking to myself, “why can’t I be like him/her?” a bit of the jealousy also strikes in my heart every time found out that a friend of mine could achieve a great accomplishment or have thoughts of far deeper than mine. I couldn’t just approach to them and tell them to “lower their IQ level” and stuff. That just doesn’t make sense. All that I could do is just study very hard and try to limit my desires. I just hope that one day, luck would be on my side and strengthens my faith plus brightens my destiny…

Working hard…

XOXO

Diary September 5th 2011

Dear charmz diary,

Guess who’s back from her hometown? ME!!! Wow it feels so good to be home. As they said HOME SWEET HOME. But then, I just realized that I have tones of unfinished homework. So, going back home isn’t “so” sweet. But today’s the first day of school from a long “Raya” holidays and as usual, my friends have loads of stories to spill. Bout their holidays and everything so am I.

Well, today we got plenty of marks for the latest test. I just couldn’t believe my Science and English marks that stood before me. OH MY GOD! Unbelievable. Bout the others? I’d say that as an “ok” only. Not much or less.  But from now on, I really want to study hard for the future exams and tests.

Forget to mention. Just now in class, all of my classmates had to present/talk about their hopes and ambition. Mine is to be a doctor of course. One of my friends said that my hopes are a “little” high. But I don’t give a damn. As people say, “Aim your target to the moon. Even if you fall, you’ll land on the stars.” (Actually my best friend told me that. I love her!) Firstly I was a bit stuttered but then, I going fine. But I guess, the part that my friends would say “EWW” the most is when I said à “Like Justin Bieber said, Never say never! Thank you” (Yeah I guess so)

Well Charmz, I think I’ll have to end it here this time. There’s so many things that I have to place it back in order. Like finding my lost English book. (SHH!! Don’t tell the teachers)

OK then. Buh-bye!!

XOXO

Diary August 3rd

Heyya Peepster!

Guess what month is this? It’s officially the month of Ramadhan where all the Muslims have to fast from morning till the sun goes down. Well I’m kinda excited this month cuz I wanna lose some weight. My friends and ESPECIALLY my DAD said that I put on weight. (Can’t tell you guys that) So, I’m pretty much determined to lose weight this month. Another favorite thing is the “Bazaar Ramadhan” and not “bizarre” ramadhan! There’s just so much food and beverages sold. Well gotta admit that most of the peeps who went there pretty much like to BURN THEIR BILLS! (money wastage) I just hope there’s no one whom I know that go there. (I just can’t bear it)

That’s all yaw!

XOXO

Diary July 30th 2011

HEY YAW CHARMZ!!!

Guess what did me and friends do today? We performed a choir of a song by Justin Bieber ft. Jaden Smith “Never Say Never”!! (oh yeah, and a Malay song too) Not to brag, but I think we all sounded great! Much appreciation to our one and only conductor, Umi Umaira! And not to mention, our school Justin Bieber, Prishanth Linggaraj! They’re awesome!! My best buddies Zulaikha and Areena are included too!!

                                                            

I got two trophies for the first ranking in class and third in the form. I also got a few vouchers. I felt proud and happy as my name is in the book where every parents get, which wrote--> Public Speaking Champion District Level : Nurfiyanti Afrina. 

We practiced for about a month and finally perform it today. Oh yes! Forgot to say this. Actually, it’s our “School Graduation and Prize Giving Day” We were the last one to perform and I thought that many people will go home by then. But fortunately, most of them is still there. Firstly, I felt very shy to face the audience and open my mouth to sing. But then, I just realized that there’s nothing to be scared of cuz we all had practiced for ages! And at last, we end our performance with a bow…

Thanks for the teachers who trained us and more. You hard works are much appreciated!

NO VOICE DAY!!

Hey Charmz and peeps!

Today's the report card singing day at my beloved school (just kidding) and my friends and I who are prefects, (most of them are)

Diary July 1st 2011

Dear Charmz Diary

Hey there! Well, tomorrow there’s an annual School Sports Day. Not so psyched anyway. And we students have to RUN (not really) around the school cuz it’s just what everyone did in the whole country. Great Idea! But just walk around the school? Seriously? Whatever lah. As long as I can chit-chat with my friends, it’s great enough.

Another thing is that I want to congratz my dear friend, Prishanth for his amazing achievement. Prish, if you saw this, CONGRATZ! He’s a genius I tell you. And a great friend too!

Kay-kay then Charmie. Gotta leave now and tweet some stuffs.

B-bye!!

Diary June 17th 2011

Dear Charmz Diary…

I don’t know to say either today is a great day or a bad day. Actually, I just had my Public Speaking competition State Level 2011. I‘m contestant number 7 and it was held in Methodist Girl's High School. I got the title MALAYSIA: MY BELOVED COUNTRY for the impromptu session. But unfortunately, I didn’t win. Well, of course, tell me how am I supposed to win? They are mostly from Penang schools and all of them speak English fluently.  Man! They’re great!!

But the fun part is the 2^nd contestant did mentioned “Like Justin Bieber said, Never Say Never” WOW! Wish I could get his speech for next year. As usual, when you lose, people will say “never mind. “You can try again next time” Kinda sick of that.

But seriously, it was a great experience talking and having fun with the other contestants. They talked great! And just like contestant 2 said, NEVER SAY NEVER.

Gonna try again next year and I’m gonna show them what I’ve got this time. Watch out peeps!!

Bye Charmz!

Diary June 17th 2011

The Story of Three Best Buddies

Once there are three little girls, running along the outskirts of town with warm smiles on their faces, clueless about their fate and destiny. As they enjoyed the moment of their lives, one of them spoke to her friend “You are very pretty and beautiful. You got a lot of friends and many people love you. Why can’t I be like you?” And then, the friend answered “They love me not because I’m pretty or beautiful. The inner beauty that lies beneath you is the only thing that matters” So then, she smiled and the three of them continued wondering around those places, enjoying the beautiful scenery.

Out of the blue, the third girl said to her friend who asked the first girl earlier “You are smart and knows the answer to all sorts of questions but not many people like you. Does jealousy never grows in your little heart?” After hearing those words, the girl replied “I may be smart and not many people likes me, but all I want to know is that my two best friends, loves me and make me feel good when I’m hurt so bad.” The girl who asked then gave a warm hug to her friend.

While the three girls were walking in their floral short skirts, holding a fragrant rose each, the third girl called her two friends “I just want to tell you both that you are the best of friends that I’ve had. We shall be together and stand by each other for eternity. May nothing can get between and tear us apart. Because that is what best friends are supposed to do...”

Therefore, they named themselves as The Triangirls which stands for the strongest structure with there edges that will stick together till the very end.

One down two to go!!

EXAM'S OVER!

Dear Charmz,

 Hey look. I'm so very sorry cuz I didn't write to you for a long time. Actually , I had exam's for the past two weeks and I had to study and revise for sure!

But now, May 26th, exam's over I have a lot of things to do and I don't know where to start! Of course, I'll write to you, be online and continue my story in the-storyville.blogspot.com. (Not sure how long is that story). And to make it more fun, holiday's just around the corner! WOW! Isn't it gr8!

But guess what? Mom and dad are going on a holiday WITHOUT us, the kids. GRR!! We'll just have to spend almost the whole holiday at our hometown that doen't have Internet. (that sucks)

Ok then. That's all I wanna tell you. If something goes on this holiday, I'll be sure to tell ya!

B-bye!! :D

Diary 21/04/2011

Dear Charmz Diary..


I can't tell you how sad am I today. I just feel like falling apart. Right now, I'm one of the most unfortunate girl in my country. There's a lot of STUPID CRAPS that happened to me today. It all starts with me unable to go to Justin Bieber's concert tonite. It hurts even more when my daddy is ACTUALLY at KL now while I'm suffering at home. Things that happened to me today are:

• Forgot to bring school books
• Forgot to bring worksheets
• Almost fall at the canteen
• Bad clothes day
• Get annoyed by a friend who was saying "BIEBER" lotsa times

And lastly, how can I forget what's the most SAD THING that happen to me today...

• Not going to JB's concert

I really hope Justin could "fall in love" with Malaysia and come again this year.. (next year I got PMR)

Got to cry, Charmie.

Bye...

Diary 31/03/2011

Hey Hey Charmz!!


Oh I'm sorry cuz I hadn't write to you for ages. It's just that I'm very busy! Well, I've good news. Guess what!?
I just won the Public Speaking Competition. It's still so " UNREAL "
Firstly when I go there, I was nervous to see BIG KIDS. ( I knew there will be big kids!) I thought to myself. If I don't win this year, I'll be joining choral speaking and maybe try again next year. My impromptu title is MY COUNTRY. Not so hard or so easy.
It feels good to win. But, I absolutely don't want to "show-off" cuz that's BAD!!
So, guess that's all I wanna say. Wish me luck for the state-level!


Toodlez, Charmie! :)

Diary 18/03/2011

Hey Hey Hey!!!!

MAN!! Finally home sweet home. (not so sweet!) Where've I been?
Good question! Actually, my friends and I went to an English Camp called LELaC! It was so fun till it's unforgettable! I had loads of new friends.

Firstly, I thought to myself " What if people dont like me? What if I say or do something wrong? Will they like me?" And the next thing, we're all friends like we've been friends before! I'm so going to the next camp! Can't wait!

Kay then. Buh-Bye! :D

Greg & Rowley's Viral Video: Tik Tok (Diary of a Wimpy Kid: Rodrick Rules)

Diary 10/03/2011

Dear Charmie Diarie..

Heyya!! Long time no see me huh? I know.. That's cuz it's exam week. Pressure's on me. But, it's over..kinda. One down, three to go. Btw, there's something bothering my mind now. It's a friend of mine. I don't know if she's mad with me or what. I hope she could tell me what she felt. If she is, I'm ready to seek for apologies..

Bye-Yah!

I GOT A PLACE!!

yeah yeah yeah yeah!! (oops..like Justin Bieber's song already)


Actually Charmz, I'm a little excited cuz I entered a competition 2 days ago. It's something like "Public Speaking" but in other language. I thought I'll never get the top 3 place cuz there're also 15 year-old seniors and they're kinda gr8 yah! But... Guess what, I GOT THE FIRST PLACE! (not bragging yah!). The embarrassing part is that I forgot some part of the text and I was like "Ergh..Um..Ah.." *blush :P* Anyway, my friends and best friends had given me gr8 support that calms me a bit. Thanks girls! And special thanks for one of my best friend for sticking with me like glue till the end of the day. WE'RE LAUGHING LIKE NONE'S LOOKING!! (hahaha)


That's all, Charm-ie..
Tell ya more l8ter! :D

Selena and Demi's break up as friends

They broke up as BFFs and its so sad... They must be more...

Diary 16/01/2011

Dear Charmz Diary...




Ah man! It is reported that PERHAPS Justin Drew Bieber is coming to Malaysia.
It's very exciting but...The sad thing is..Dad will NEVER let me go! (no matter what happen) I just hope he could be more nicer to me this time and care about me MORE now.. I'm dying to go there. There are some people I knew who told me about it. and they was like "Hey, Fiffy. U going?" and I was like "NO. Not going. Don't really care about it" But deep down, I really wanna go..

PARIS OH LA LA..

Paris, Paris, Paris...

Can you imagine Charmz, if could go to Paris? Imagine if i could further my studies there? AWW.. That would be amazing! I just can't get enough f it. The city is so beautiful, wonderful and amazing...

Anyone can bring me to Paris and take me for a stroll??

Demi Lovato 'Gift of a Friend' Music Video

AWH.. I heart this song... :)

Diary 03/01/2011

Dear Charmz Diary...


OMG! Today is the first day of school... AND IT SUCKED!
Firstly, I came late to school.
Secondly, my shirt is short. (a teacher told me)
Thirdly, I have to do the duty. (But I didnt!)HIHI


Well, I think that's it. But, those things wasn't supposed to happen on the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL, am I rite? URGH! It doesn't turned out as I planned...


Whatever, Charmz.
Have to go..