My soul needs medication

I should take this if it exist!

Dear Diary,

Actually I don't know what to think right now. I just feel as if my soul is very exhausted and tired. I would like to be "free" again, somehow, like my friends. They're just happy enjoying their life and can do whatever they want to do, without having to keep secrets.. and stuff. I guess it's true of what people say about "this stuff" You know? Sometimes I felt that I've made a fool of myself for letting me dragged into this unrealistic world.

There're just too much conflicts revolving around me. But thank god it happened after the exams, so that I don't have to focus on studies much. Actually I have a friend who's a girl and we called her <insert> because of her annoying behaviour. I don't deny that she's an intelligent girl and one of the top scorers in my school, but she often "brags" about her INTELLIGENCE, which my friends and I found real annoying. But seriously, sometimes I think it'll be okay to be like her. I mean, she concentrates almost 100% in her studies and does not get herself involved in this world (I guess) and look what does that brought her? LOADS OF BENEFITS! I don't say that I want to brag and be such a snob like her, but I'm just extracting the positive values from her, if I ever possibly could.

As much as I want to share this with you, but I'm afraid this information of me expressing myself got into the wrong hands. I think I should just keep this to myself. Anyway, I think that all I want to do now is just sit back, read my novel and have some snack. Yeah I think that's the best way to handle this massive headache. I'm not saying my life is in a misery though but I could use some friendly help. I just can't choose alright! And please don't let me do it. My friends would know what the heck am I talking about this "choosing" stuff. Please don't think negatively, dear diary!

i drove to my mum's clinic to pick up some medicine cuz this major headache is killing me. I don't have any fever, according to my mum who diagnosed my few minutes ago. But then on my way home, my teacher saw me driving a car and for one moment I thought her eyes were going to pop out! Now that's another explanation to give, later on. Haaa.. Perhaps life's "a little" miserable right now. But what the heck, I think I can handle this with some friendly conversation and help.

I should get some rest now, diary. I'll write to you soon, when I'm feeling better.

Love,

Fiffy