Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Allow me to burst!

Dear Diary,

This might sounds rude but I'm going to start it with this... GODDAMN IT! Today is just so stressful. Maybe because my family and I are going to my dad's hometown in Terengganu, which takes a 9-hour drive. It's some bloody hell, isn't it? (I sounded like Ron Weasly, eh?) Honestly saying, although it's quite fun to be there, but there are also cons of going to that hometown of my dad's. Here's why:


  1. I don't like the long drive
  2. I don't know how to speak with Terengganu dialect
  3. I hate when I'm ignored by my OWN FAMILY!
  4. I don't have friends who happens to be my age
Besides that, my parents are putting a load on my mind when they are asking me to get all my stuff ready for the so-called holidays, which is going to end this Sunday. Until now, I don't think this "going to Terengganu" thingy is gonna be worth it! 

Second of all, everything is just happening to fast, not giving me even a short break. Just to make it clear, I won't reply any text messages from anyone for the time being, to calm my mind a bit. Well except for my best/close friends. This massive headache I had yesterday might as well gone, but the scar of it in my soul still remains. This would take quite a long time to cure. Now let's just not talk about it okay? 

There's just one thing I want to say, I don't want to keep lies or secrets any longer. (If there is) actually is not even a secret and I didn't lie. I'm just not telling the truth to certain people. And I think it's best for me to be honest. Or else I'm going to regret it in the future, which I certainly want to avoid from happening.

Alright then. Till then, diary.

Love,
Fiffy

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