Hey Charmz. It's good to write to you again. I don't know why but I just feel kind of bummed. I really feel like everyone is trying to put me down. I feel ignored and neglected. Sometimes, even my own BFF would talk to another person without telling me. Even they are right in front of my eye balls.!! But I don't really blame her... (I guess) And what makes me sad is that I'm lacking of friends. They must have look/judge me like I'm some kind or freaky nerd weirdo! Did everything I do is wrong and so bad?
I also often get bugged by my physical appearance. I mean... I'm really short and "plumpy". I hate that! If only the lady, Jillian from the Biggest Loser could come here and "fix" me a little. You know what I mean. Some of my classmates are so mean. They call me names that a person hated to be called. Even my best friend looks me like that. But, I just pretend that I didn't care by laughing my heart out most of the time. I wouldn't go to anyone and say "Hey you. You know that your words hurt me?" cuz I don't want to. But what I really wanted to say is " Hey! stop belittling me and putting me down!" But I didn't dare myself to.
I wish the people who makes me feel small out there could have read this and they could realize what they made.But I'm not saying all of my friends/people hurt me. Just... most of them.
So I guess I'll have to go now Charmz. It's such a relief writing to you this evening.
Have a great day!
Sincerely,
Me...
(feeling down and ignored)
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