Monday, December 30, 2013

Page 365 of 365 (part 1)

Hey yaw!
I'm just gonna be honest and say that I'm gonna post a few entries for this day. Why? Cuz it's the end of 2013 baby !

So how's your 2013 so far? Mine pretty sucks. Tapi boleh katakan yang tahun 2013 ni thought me a lot about life. From budak PMR naik ke budak Form 4 memang berbeza. Bukan je sebab subjek kat sekolah dah bertambah tapi dalam banyak benda dah berubah. People just stopped treating you a like kid and they make you be responsible for what you did. Masa form 3 dulu boleh la cakap "Eh, bukan aku yang buat" But being a 16 year old girl, I've learnt that we have to take responsibility of what we did. I need to stay positive and face every challenge maturely. (Trust me, there's gonna be a whole lot of challenges when you're 16) I've learnt that it's ok if I fail but the main thing is to never give up. Cuz once you give up, orang lain akan pijak kepala kau. BELIEVE ME.

ok that's it for this mini post.
To be continued, some time, this day.

Love,
Fiffy :)

4 countries in 10 days baby !

Hey guys. It's been quite a long time since my last post. Was I busy? Heck yeah ! With all the final exams and stuff.

Let's just go straight to the point alright. Holidays were AWESOME this year! Some asked did I go to Paris and some says Netherlands and others say Belgium. Well I say... I went to all mentioned! Plus Germany..

I can't really "elaborate" on all of the places I've been to but perhaps I could spill some details. Well firstly my family and I went to visit Cologne (KOLN) in Germany. It was just a short trip but I think it's quite a peaceful area. Nope, we did not have a nap or sleep after the 13 hours flight. Penat tu penat jugak la tapi seronok punya pasal, tak ingat penat dah. LOL. My sisters and I were extremely thrilled sebab bila keluar airport je, rasa macam masuk dalam freezer. Sejuk ya amat! Jackets and coats? Of course la bro, it's like 5 degrees over there ! (Mine ada bulu bulu.. hehe)

Lepas shopping sikit sikit, kitorang straight pegi Amsterdam. I'm not exaggerating but Amsterdam is AWESOME !! Memang best gila sebab town dia macam peaceful je. Almost everyone uses bikes and bicycles as their transport. Kereta tu ada jugak la. Tapi diorang bawak basikal laju macam bawak motor. NO kidding. Shopping kat sana memang best. But I warn you if any of you're going there, kena pantau budak-budak sikit cuz there are quite a bunch of shops yang "inappropriate" for kids, ya know what I mean?

Stayed in Ramada Hotel, Amsterdam for 2 nights. Next stop, Belgium! Umm what can I say about Belgium eh? It was quite fascinating to see all those historical buildings and not to mention the famous Manneken Pis. (the shirtless boy) Kalau nak tau pasal the history pegi Google sendiri la, tak larat nak cerita. And not to forget, the well-known Belgium waffles ! Homagadd sedap gilos. It's around 4.5 Euros each and that's around RM20 ! Yep. Tapi memang berbaloi la sebab sedap...and you don't get to taste Belgium waffles in Malaysia everyday ! (Kalau bab makan aku memang terlebih excited. LOL)

Next, we went PARIS babyyy! Yeah.. the city of love or bla bla bla. The buildings are inexplicably breath-taking. Musee du Louvre, Arc de Triomphe, Notre Dame etc. Dan yang tak lain & tak bukan.... EIFFEL TOWER ! (tour de eiffel) I was fascinated by the beautiful buildings and all but my mom.... she got herself tied on something else. Her favorite spot = Galeries Lafayette. No no it's not a place where they exhibit art and stuff, it's like a really enormous and luxurious shopping spot. Louis Vuitton, Burberry, Long Champs, Gucci, YOU NAME IT !

And last but not least, a cruise along the city of Paris and the Eiffel Tower. Omagad it was damnnnn cold and I'm pretty sure my nose froze. LOL. It was indeed a very breath taking and beautiful scenery I've ever seen.There are couples hugging and cuddling in the cold and I was like "Errrrr.." Haha. But I enjoyed myself to the fullest :D

I've some problems in uploading the pics so maybe nanti la I upload gambar tu eh?
That's it for now. Bye guys :D

Love,
Fiffy

Monday, September 30, 2013

ALMOST year end

assalamualaikum.

today's date is September 30th 2013 which means we've been through 3/4 of 2013 already. oh god this year sure is tiring. well.. frankly exam's just around the corner and people will start asking their friends whether they have started the revision and studies or not. oh for god's sake.. kalau nak study to study je la if not then just sit down at home quietly! but typical students being students, kalau tengok atau dengar yang kawan sendiri dah mula study baru la nak terhegeh cari buku and everything.

what i am trying to do here is just stabilize my emotions and all.  tak nak ada terjerat in any immature dramas you know. everytime  before i start my revision, i'll always imagine that i'm about to sit for a qualification exam to get into Taylors University or Monash in Australia. i just want it so badly. same goes when my mood suddenly starting to fade or disappear in class. i'll just think that I'm gonna get the hell outta here soon and all i gotta do is just hang in there.

and not to forget, i seriously gotta pay attention to my health. memandangkan cuaca yang tak menentu sekarang ni, apa pun boleh jadi. apparently there are bunch of diseases that i might be caught up with. i also currently having a freakin sore throat and i really hate it. I'm automatically this quiet and shy, short girl in class during this unfavorable period. Oh god i hope i get well soon. Esok dah la ada Sejarah Paper 3. Entah apa pun tak ready lagi and lepas tu pulak my grandma boleh ajak pergi market. Hmm.. Takpe la pasrah je la.

Oh yeah. Hari ni Husna dengan Ika dua dua tak datang so that might be one of the reason why i'm pretty quiet in class today. Memang nak kena dua dua ekor tu. but then, it may seems  like Karma because last week i'm the one who was absent and left the both of them in school. I went to KL, enjoying myself for the last minute before exam starts. Haha. I guess it's their planned agenda eh?

anyways, i gotta get ready now because i have to accompany my grandma to the market now..YEAH NO KIDDING. the only reason i'm a little annoyed is because i should be having my beauty sleep now. But i don't wanna be an ungrateful grand-daughter.

Love,
Fiffy

Friday, August 30, 2013

Jangan abaikan dia

Assalamualaikum


Soalan aku kali ni. Wajar ke kalau sesorang tu tinggalkan kawan sendiri demi nak bersama dengan orang yang dia nak? Dan orang tu belum tentu dapat terima dia saat dia susah? Bagi aku pekara ni sangat tak masuk akal. Walaubagaimanapun, tak dinafikan memang ada orang yang macam ni.

Sebab? Aku sendiri pun sukar nak tahu. Adakah sebab kawannya tu berkelakuan buruk terhadap dia? Suka mengkhianat? Tidak. Aku tak rasa macam tu sama sekali. Pendapat jujur aku, orang yang tinggalkan kawannya sendiri tu adalah orang yang tiada pemikiran yang rasional. Bak kata orang, kawan biar beribu, berkasih biar satu. Tapi, dalam hal ni, lain pula yang jadi. Kasihnya masih satu, tapi kawan kawan yang lain dibiarkan.

Kalau ada yang tergolong dalam golongan ni, sila imbas kembali apa yang dah kawan kau buat selama ni. Dia banyak membantu kau tak? Dia terima kau masa susah kau tak? Dia pernah merendahkan kau depan orang lain tak? Kalau jawapan kau YA, tapi kau masih tak ubah perangai kau tu sikit, maka aku gelarkan kau sebagai insan yang tergolong dalam kalangan orang-orang yang rugi.

Orang yang kononnya kau panggil kekasih tu, kau pastu ke dia boleh terima awak masa awak susah? Kau yakin ke dia boleh sentiasa bersama kau macam kawan baik kau tu? Boleh ke kau luah perasaan dekat dia apabila kau tengah sedih? Cuba letakkan diri kau di tempat kawan yang kau telah tinggalkan. Apa agaknya perasaan kau apabila kawan baik kau tinggalkan kau disebabkan orang yang digelar "buah hati'? Boleh kau maafkan kawan kau tu apabila dia datang merangkak balik kepada kau kelak? Memang sukar nak jawab soalan ni tapi kalau kau seorang yang berhati perut dan berperikemanusiaan, kau pasti dapat jawab tanpa ragu-ragu.




"Do not leave a person you need for a person you want"

Love,
Fiffy

Monday, August 19, 2013

Apakah yang dinamakan kebahagian dalam hubungan?

Assalamualaikum sang suria.

Apakah yang dimaksudkan dengan kebahagian dalam sesuatu hubungan? Adakah apabila kedua pihak saling memuji kelebihan masing-masing? Atau mungkin apabila kedua mereka dapat membuktikan bahawa mereka tidak bersalah apabila tercetusnya konflik dan berdiri gagah dengan ego masing masing ?





Bagi aku kebahagiaan dalam sesuatu hubungan itu lahir apabila dua pihak saling memahami antara satu sama lain. Tidak kiralah hubungan dengan rakan-rakan atau sesiapa pun. Yang penting biarlah amalan bertoleransi dan memahami itu disemai di dalam diri. Sesungguhnya sebagai manusia kita adalah makhluk yang lemah. Apakah erti sesebuah hubungan jikalau sesebuah pihak hanya mampu memperlihatkan segala kelemahan orang lain semata mata bagi mengaburkan kelemahan diri sendiri ? Adakah berguna jika sesebuah pihak itu berusaha mendapatkan para pengikut sedangkan apa yang dilakukan olehnya ternyata salah dan tidak adil sama sekali ?

Patutkah seseorang itu mendukung dan menyokong sekiranya rakan/pasangan nya membuat sesuatu perkara yang salah? Seperti yang aku katakan memang persefahaman penting dalam sesebuah hubungan. Namun, aku tahu bahawa aku sama sekali tidak patut menyokong jika sesorang itu berbuat perkara-perkara yang layak untuk dihukum sama ada orang itu orang yang paling dekat denganku mahupun musuh ketatku sendiri.

Oleh itu, aku berusaha untuk memujuk hati ini dan berdoa kepada Allah agar Dia dapat menunjukkan kepadaku apa yang sepatutnya aku lakukan. Pada mulanya, aku memilih untuk berdiam diri dan beranggapan bahawa ia perkara yang kecil. Namun, aku tahu bahawa jalan tersebut bukanlah jalan yang terbaik. Aku sedar yang aku sendiri bukan insan yang sempurna. Aku ada banyak kelemahan dan aku tidak layak untuk Jannatul Firdaus milik Allah. Tetapi, aku ingin berusaha untuk membantu orang-orang disekeliling aku. Membantu mereka supaya dapat faham bahawa erti sesebuah hubungan yang baik bermula apabila dua pihak saling memahami namun, perkara yang buruk tidak harus disokong sebaliknya perlulah diubah.


Love,
Fiffy




Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Esok Raya !

Adehh.... Panasnya hari ni. Sepatutnya nak habis puasa ni la yang budak-budak excited kan? Tapi memang letih gila hari ni. Actually I'm updating my blog from Terengganu ni. Baru je sampai semalam. Bertolak pukul 4 pagi. Pergh memang penat sangat la !

So... it's official yang hari ni last puasa. Ayah aku pulak sibuk cakap tak payah nak beli makanan banyak sangat sebab esok dah tak payah sahur dah la apa la.. Tapi bagi aku, nak hari last ni la yang nak menikmati Ramadhan sepuas-puasnya..kan? Dah la bulan puasa setahun sekali je. Sesetengah makanan pun ada setahun sekali je. haha. So tak kira..kalau aku nak aku akan dapatkan jugak.

Tapi boring la sekarang ni. Memang la ada Internet and everything tapi still... tak tau kenapa still boring sangat derh. Maybe kalau ada lesen best sikit la kot boleh ronda-ronda. Hehe. Aku nak join cousin cousin aku main pun dah "melebihi had umur" Adik-adik aku kira untung jugak la. Takpe.. Aku dengan dunia aku sendiri. Macam biasa la. Kat rumah pun sama..Kat sekolah pun sama. 

So esok raya... tapi aku still tak "dapat" apa yang best sangat....(kot) entah la. Mood raya tu tak berapa nak datang lagi kot. Nak kata kawan, kawan pun takdak. Hanya aku dengan gajet-gajetku dengan my volleyball. (Alahai pasrahnya bunyi) Haha

Ok la. Dah penat sangat ni. Ingat nak melepak je la sampai pukul 5 kejap lagi baru pergi Bazaar Ramadhan ke apa. Oh ye, lupa nak cakap yang bazaar Ramadhan dekat Terengganu lagi BANYAK variety daripada yang dekat Penang. SERIOUSLY ! Nasi segala macam ada.. Coconut shake pun ada. hehe. Tapi yang tak boleh tahannya harga memang MAHAL GILA. Kalah juadah berbuka kat KL aku rasa. 

OK then. GTG. bye. Assalamualaikum

Thursday, August 1, 2013

I'm So Sorry

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night –
The first time you ever saw me cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.
All the time.